Something...

i am bored, i need to do something... maybe run for a cause, go on a trip... i'm still stuck. i need a new life. *dialing* one new life please with extra cheese =) My new thing ---to do read one blog a day... life is good but i want more... i wish a have more to say better words to share wiser views to give and happier stories to write about... for now if ever their is anyone out there who passed by this blog and browsed it and found nothing interesting i'm sorry... but i am hoping things will be better soon... and maybe... i'll have more to share...

wishful thinking...

i was fooling myself... i felt better yes but no i'm not OK... i'm in a standstill.. i wish to move, to go forward and with my life... its been on hold for too long. life a given me a dilemma that has made my life STOP. move on! easier said than  done... i am jealous of every wife with their husband going to church together, i envy very mom playing with her kid, and i envy every family who is taking a trip together and forgetting about life just for a while... and most of all i'm envious of the woman who's man has stood up for her...

maybe if i am beautiful...

one of those days...

the green eyed monster is hunting me... i hate being jealous i hate how it brings me to tears... i have always been lucky, my life is better than most... why does this stab of jealousy/envy still hunt me? maybe because i have always been a dreamer and we all know life's truth... not all dreams come true. i'm a positive person so for now i'm going to cry my heart out and later i'm gonna get up and get what i want!!! i'm treating this pang of envy as a reminder of making my life even better... so what if i'm luckier than others??? i've been a relatively good person and i know how to work hard! i will get what i want! DANG !!!  i deserve what i want!!! and yes the decision to make a blog is a good one... i don't think i even have to cry now =)